Cobwebs…

sorry this place has gotten little in the way of updates, been busy…busy…busy.
New job started last week, yay! Much controversy and as Miss Neicy Nash of Clean House would say, mayhem and foolishness. I have a brilliant idea for their website to hopefully bring peace to the restless native. Looking forward to the job, it’s going to be a huge challenge but I love web design challenges.

Been also working on the freelance job I quoted last fall and that’s been keeping me hopping since now that they’ve decided to finally green light the work, they have a deadline that is a couple of weeks away, yay!

Kids started their summer vacations… already heard “I’m bored”… glad I have 2 jobs & the freelance to keep me busy so I won’t have to hear that refrain much.

~ciao for now

I don’t pray, but I now people who do…

does that work?
Ok, so we are in for some major changes *cue David Bowie*…
First up: I sold my beloved laptop (please, please paypal release my money soon! I really, really need it.now.yesterdayactually!) It wasn’t doing me any good, wasn’t actively making me money so before it was really worthless I decided to sell. Got what I wanted for it and am happy about that.
Second: We are going to *sharp intake*basic cable*and exhale*. We are a family that loves us some television so this is big. I passed it by the kids and husband and they all said ok, grudgingly, but ok. Then yesterday I reconfirmed that we were all on board and that “you did know that basic means only 13 channels, right?” One said yes, the other near tears said “then I won’t be able to watch anything in my room any more.” no, sorry… you will be able to read, watch dvd’s and interact with family…sorry for the last one. We are all having to make adjustments. I have set the time frame as summer, but if it works we may just stay a basic cable family. Others do it and survive we can too.
Third: I am waiting on a phone call about a job. A real, honest to goodness job! Had 2 really good interviews with the last one followed up with “How do you think your interview went?” “Pretty good.” “Me too, he wants references.”… so I’ve been getting reports all week from my references that they have been contacted, and no one has told them I’m a wretched bitch, and that I am a horrible employee… so call me dammit! ~ahem~

My goal, by summers end, to be living within our means. I’m tired of worrying about how I’m going to pay the next bill… scrambling around for money to pay the utilities before they are cut off, not having money to buy groceries, being able to afford a movie once in a while… and having savings.

Number 3 happens… the above will happen.
So people who pray… do… send out good vibes into the ether. I need them.

For the record…

Might have something to actually blog about later in the week…

Yea, I know…
…exciting!

5 years

Miss you….

Um…

…yea.

That about sums it up lately….

First of May

Ok, so as is tradition for any Bee Gees fan we listen to First of May on… wait for it…. the First of May! Almost got ya there, didn’t I? Well here it is…

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Breaking the silence

Since our school was on spring break last week we celebrated the Day of Silence today. I was asked to say something as a parent of a gay teen and President of our local chapter of PFLAG. After the cut is what I said.
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Overwhelmed

So, as you all may know, or not… I took over as president of our local chapter of PFLAG. I’m officially in over my head. I don’t know how the past president juggled everything that was involved in keeping this thing going. But I’m at my wits end. I probably should have known not to take it on because I can’t delegate well… and in this thing delegation is a necessity. There is a lot I want to do but feel tied. Not enough money, not enough input, not enough…

I’ve taken on another ‘free’lance job. Not a problem, I love doing the design work and if I’m given some creative freedom all the better… I just hope this leads to something.

I need a job, a real job. Not the one I currently have that is hit or miss with hours. Last week I only had 8 hours, that doesn’t pay the bills. So of course the bills are piling up.

I’ve given up on Weight Watchers and right now I feel like a huge, giant blob.

Sheesh… swear this all sounds very pms-y.

Sorry… whiney and overwhelmed today.

Graduation day

Changing…

So Maddy’s doctor has decided to switch her from Zoloft to Prozac. Unsure how I feel about it but I trust this doctor. Maddy didn’t seem to have quite the reaction(is that the right word?) that Grace had on Zoloft. After 2 or 3 weeks of Grace being on Zoloft there was a noticeable difference in her. She was much more ‘present’, actually asks about what appointments she has coming, and asked me how a job interview went where before she wouldn’t. She also had given me actual answers to my queries about her friends. A difference. With Maddy, not so much. But there is a difference in their ‘issues’. Where Grace is usually aloof and uninterested, Maddy is sad and despondent. Grace just goes with the flow, seemingly unfazed by things. Maddy is greatly affected by her surroundings and questions everything. She is also our conspiracy theorist. Everything that happens, happens to her, against her, about her. It’s very frustrating.
So here we go, on a different path with antidepressants.
I hope we are on the right one.
I want the cloud to lift from her soul.
I just worry that one day she is going to decide that it’s just not worth the struggle any more.